2002 Hawaii Trip
I don't own a scale because I know that muscle weighs more than fat and I wanted to get myself out of the "scale for redemption" mindset. I will say that I am no longer 'SUCKING IT IN' for dear life! I'm holding my pants UP for dear life! I've gone from a size 36 in jeans to a size 33 in 90 days! ! ! ! I have lost a total of 22 1/2 inches overall! ! ! I have muscles I thought I would only see on models. I can honestly say to myself 'Cellulite? I see no stinkin' cellulite! ' and I can spend hours looking at myself in the mirror now instead of hiding from them! It is a truly amazing thing to be able to say that I love myself for the first time. All of this life changing, emotional experience was just from saying "no more" and picking up the phone. "
Read more about Heather's story below. . .
My life-changing story...
Hey ladies and gentlemen. I don't know if I have gone through this with you all, but here's my story. I have a1ways been a big girl. I know a 1ot of peop1e say that they have a1ways been 1arge, but for me it wasn't just weight.
My dad is 6"7" and my mom is 5'10" and you can bet my twin brother and I both inherited the height! Unfortunate1y for me, I didn't seem to inherit the high racing metabolism that my brother seemed to have.
I have always been called names: "Daddy Long legs," "Too Tall," these were the ones I was called when I was young. As I got o1der, I not on1y strugg1ed with my height (I was ta11er than my brother for the longest time! ) but I started strugg1ing with my weight as well, thus names 1ike "sasquatch" and "bigfoot" came into play. I never got called anything skinny and graceful, always something huge and grotesque. I started dieting at the age of 13 (I'm 25 now) because that's when people started calling me the ugly names. It's continued all my life; yo-yo dieting. I wou1d lose tons and gain it all right back p1us some. It became a way of life for me.
Then I met Dan, my boyfriend now, in 1999. I was at one or my "skinnier" times. I should have been fee1ing fantastic. I had a great boyfriend, I had a great job; everything was great. So great I fell into a so-ca11ed happy contentment and started eating everything. The happy contentment slow1y turned into a creeping depression. Once again I was slowing gaining everything back. In all this time it never occurred to me to stop poisoning my body with junk and start exercising. I was still in the "magic pill, shake, soup, not eating" mindset.
In January 2001, Dan finished his 4 years in the USMC (he was stationed in my town...that's how we met) and decided he wanted to move back to his hometown Syracuse, NY and he wanted me to come with him. I decided that this is the man I love and eventually will marry so why not? I packed up everything I owned and my dog and left all my family and friends, basically everything I knew, and moved to Syracuse. I knew no one here and had no job. Dan got an apprenticeship to be an electrician in the union so they send him all over the state, meaning I get to see him on1y on the weekends. No friends + No job + No Fami1y + No boyfriend = lots and lots of comfort food. I ate and I ate because it seemed to be the only thing that was familiar to me. I ate so much and got so big that I was wearing Dan's jeans! I was wearing 34's when I moved here, but I was now squeezing myself into 36's! And I mean, "COME ON GIRL SUCK IT IN" just to zip the zipper up. There were many tears through this time. I avoided mirrors at all costs, and GIANT 2x sweaters became my favorite tops. Through the whole thing Dan told me everyday that he loved me and that I was beautiful. Even when I was bawling my eyes out telling him that I didn't want to be fat anymore, he would sit with his arms around me telling me that he loved me no matter what and that I was beautiful. I know now that he was thinking "What can I do to help her?" He was so helpless that all he could do was tell me he loved me no matter what.
One night, a couple of days after one of my sobbing breakdowns, I hit a deep depression. I started stuffing my face and drinking some beer. I was watching TV and didn't want to go to bed. I was ashamed to even go to bed with my boyfriend. Can you believe it? Anyway I was flipping through the channels trying to find another late night fistfight talk show and BAMMO, it was like I got hit in the face; there was the Power 90 infomercial. I watched the whole thing like a person driving by a bad wreck. I couldn't take my eyes away from it. By the end of the infomercial I was crying, but I knew that this was it. I wrote down the number and the website and instantly got online to check it out. I saw all of the amazing pictures in the Before and After gallery and I registered with the website then and there. Now came the hard part! I had to convince Dan that this is what I wanted for my birthday.
The next morning I showed Dan all the info and he got on the website and he "investigated" everything. He finally decided that if this is what I really wanted he wou1d get it for me. I immediately changed everything! I threw out all the "food porn" in the house and went shopping for good food. I was like a child on Christmas Eve, I was sooo antsy for my DVDs to arrive so I could start. I received them on March 7 and took my day 1 's in the INFAMOUS JCREW MOOSE BOXERS. You can see that in my Day 30's they are slowly making their way down my waist! By day 60, they wouldn't even stay up so on my head the went! And now on my Day 90, well just look at me! I'm blown away by what I have achieved and there's soooo much more in store for me! ! !
I started this program at 210 pounds and the last time I weighed myself I was at 191 pounds, that was at my Day 30. I don't own a scale because I know that muscle weighs more than fat and I wanted to get myself out of the "scale for redemption" mindset. I will say that I am no longer "SUCKING IT IN" for dear life! I'm holding my pants UP for dear 1ife! I've gone from a size 36 in jeans to a size 33 in 90 days! ! ! ! I have lost a total of 22 1/2 inches overall! ! ! I have muscles I thought I would only see on models. I can honestly say to myself "Cellulite? I see no stinkin' cellulite! " and I can spend hours looking at myself in the mirror now instead of hiding from them! It is a truly amazing thing to be able to say that I love myself for the first time. All of this life changing, emotional experience was just from saying "no more" and picking up the phone.
I owe so much to the Beachbody crew. Without them NONE of this would be possible. I have made sooooo many wonderful friends that I am going to have for the rest of my new and improved healthy life from these message boards alone! So with all my heart, thank you, thank you Beachbody staff, thank you Tony Horton, you push me daily (except on my day off hee hee). I love you man! , thank you Steve, the fittess advisor for answering so many questions, and thank you to all of the wonderful, beautiful people that I have met on the boards for pushing me and motivating me! You all are truly the best and I love you all! ! !